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"" Rm³ a½ntbmSv ]dªn«v....''

Ah³ hoWvSv­pw AXp Xs¶ ]dbpIbmWv. F{X {]mhniyw CXpXs¶ Ah³ ]dbp¶p !

{]tXyIn¨v Hcp BIrXnbnÃm¯ kq£va Pohn. IpSen\pÅn Pohnt¡­WvSXv.

F\n¡v Aht\mSv tXm¶n¯pS§nb CuÀj hÀ²n¨phcnIbmbncp¶p.

Ft¸mgpw Ahsâ _eanÃm¯ t\m«w Npän¯ncnªv Fsâ ImÂhncepIfnse¯n \n¡p¶Xv ]Xnhmbn«pWvS v. A{Xbpw Imcyw. Fsâ kzXth Ie§nb angnIÄ ]ns¶bpw aghmSnIfpsS XWeäw hsc t]mbn ]cmPbs¸«p.

BZysams¡ Ah³ Aao_sbt¸msebmbncp¶p. H«I¯ns\ t]mse Xe\o«m³ XpS§p¶Xn\v Gsd\mÄ ap³]v. \à Hcp Aao_ ! AXv F\n¡v CjvSambn. {UmbnwKv t_mÀUn an\n {Um^vädpw skäv kvIzbdpw h¨v Rm\p­WvSm¡nb PmanXob P´p¡Ä aqÀ¯cq]§fmbn amdp¶ \mfpIfmbncp¶p AXv. Ccp«nsâ henb Xpc¦¯n \n¶pw Rm³ shfn¨s¸«p XpS§nb \mfpIÄ. \jvS ku`mKy§fpsS t]mb Ime¯n \n¶pw hoWvsSSp¸v. Fs¶ Rm³ {UmbnwKv t_mÀUn \n¶pw AI¶ HcnS¯v {]khn¨p.

A¶v Ah³ F\n¡v Hcp]äw hmSnb ]q¡fpambn h¶p.

s]mSp¶s\ F\n¡v FÃmw a\Ênembn.

""AXm.... Rm³ a½ntbmSv ]dªn«v......''

Ah\nXv ]dbpsa¶v kqks\§s\ {]hNn¨p ? AsX\n¡v a\ÊnembnÃ. BÂ_À«nsâ Acbn Npän¸nSn¡phm³ XpS§nbt¸mÄ apX AhÄ Ipd¨v t`Zs¸«n«pWvS v. AhfpsS amdnS¯n ]Xnª kÀÆ \JþZ´£X§tfbpw sXm«p Im«n AhÄ Fs¶ sImXn¸n¨p.

F¶nse NqSp ImWmsX Ah³ ]mbep t]mse HgpInbt¸mÄ Rm³ a\Ên FgpXn. Ch³ C\n apX Zp:ÈIp\ambn ap¶nsem ]n¶nsem ImWpw. ]ns¶ Hcp]äw Ddp¼pIfpambn Fs¶ Blcn¡phm³ hcpw.

""AhnsS B XWenÂ........ '' Ah³ NqWvSpw. ac¯nsâ hSp¡fnse ]¶Âs¨SnIfn ]m¼pWvtSm? a®t©cn kv¡qfn \n¶pw hSt¡m«p tdmUphgn \S¡pt¼mÄ hgnbcnInse ac¯n \n¶pw DXnÀ¶p ]Xn¡p¶ h³ tNcIÄ! Ip«n¡mes¯ Hcp]mSp `b§fn C¶p Nneh Iq«n\v.

"" th­WvS...amdn\n¡mw.''

ac¯n \n¶pw s]mgnª Idp¯ hfªp ]pfª ImbIÄ. Ce¨¸n\nsS Ah Cgªp \S¡p¶p. amdnS¯nse Idp¯ adpIv _vfuknsâ hc¼n\p sXm«p aosXbmWv. AXv A\mhcWs¸Sp¯n Im«nbmsem F¶ tXm¶Â. Ahs\ t]Sn¸n¡m³. ]ns¶ AtXmÀ¯v hÀ¡nwKv hna³kv tlmÌense apdnbn X\n¨ncp¶v Iptd t\cw Nncn¨p. an\n {Um^vädnsâ s]m«nt]mb \«pIfmWv ]ns¶bpw ]ns¶bpw Ahsâ I®pIsf HmÀan¸n¡p¶Xv.

Ah³ CSbvs¡ms¡ IS¶p h¶ncp¶p. hmÀÍ\v Ahs\ henb Imcyambn«pWvS v. F{X kvt\l]pcÊcw AhÀ Ahs\ Fsâ apdnbpsS ap¶nte¡v B\bn¡p¶p ! AXmWv Hs¡ Ipgbv¡p¶Xv. Hcp apXnÀ¶ s]®mb kqk³ tXmaÊns\ AhÀ Ibän hn«nÃ. Ahfn\n hcnà F¶v F{X h«w ]dªp ImWpw !

"" CXv a½n X¶phn« kvs]jyÂ............ '' ]Xnhp t]mse apdnbpsS ]pd¯p \n¶v Ah³ ssIIÄ \o«n. \Ã \mS³ akmebpsS KÔ¯neqsS ssI¸pWyw \mkmc{Ô§sf XgpIn. F¶n«pw......

"" F\n¡v C¶v s\mb¼m...........'' AXv ssZhw s]mdp¡m\nSbpÅ IÅw.

hoWvSpw Hcn¡Â an\n {Um^vädnsâ t]cpw ]dªv ! AXv \¶m¡n X¶nà F¦n a\Êam[m\w hcnÃs{X. Hcp _em_e¯n\mbn C\n Hcn¡Â IqSn Ahs\ hnfn¡tWm AIt¯¡v ? hmÀUsâ I®n\n ChntS¡v hcnÃ. h¶m Xs¶ AXn sXäpanÃ. IS¯n hn«Xv icnbmsW¶v \ymboIcn¡phm³ AhÀ ]ns¶ ImWp¶Xv an­WvSphm³ CSbnÃ. Asænepw Nmcn{X\jvSs¯ Ipdn¨v AhcpsS k¦Â¸w hnIeamIm\mWv Gsd km[yX. IÀ¯mhnsâ Nn{X¯n\p ap¼n Xncn I¯n¨v ap«pImen \n¶m Xocmhp¶Xv.

]Xnhpt]mse Ah³ AI¯v IbdnbnÃ. hmXn¡ \n¶v H«I¯ns\ t]mse Xe \o«pw.

" H«Iw.' Ipd¨p Znhk§Ä ap³]v Cu hntijWw tI«v kqk³ Hcp]mSv Nncn¨XmWv..

"" thWvS , AXv \¶m¡m³ Rm³ Hm^oknse ]yqWnt\mSv ]dªp . ''

Ahsâ apJ¯v hnjaw ]SÀ¶pshm ? km[yX CÃ. ImcWw Ah³ Aao_bmbncp¶sÃm. GItImi Pohn.

GXmbmepw A¶s¯ Dd¡w Cu {Um^vädnsâ t]cn t]mtIWvS . AXnsâ hen¸w thÌp Ip«bnepw hepXmbncp¶p. ]ns¶ AXv Bdmw\nebpsS tem_nbn \n¶v Xmtg¡v Fdnªp. Xmsg ]«nIfpsS hI \nÀ¯msXbpÅ Ipcbpw.. XncnsI apdnbn XnSp¡¯n F¯pt¼mgmWv ssI X«n cWvSp IpXncIfpsS NnÃn« B Nn{Xw DSªXv.

A§ns\ Ccp«nsâ Xpc¦§fnte¡v ho­WvSpw Rm³ Fdnbs¸Sphm³ km[yX sXfnªp hcp¶Xv Rm³ Adnªp.

FÃmhcnepw tNmZy§Ä Ahtijn¸n¨mtem ? thWvS . B Xocpam\¯n \n¶pw ]n³hm§n. CXv Hcp kp{][m\ kw`hamsW¶v ]n¶oSv kqk³ tXmaÊv ]dªp. "" CXv BtLmjn¡Ww. ''

Aht\mSv ]I ho«Ww. "" kqk³, \nsâ BÂ_À«ns\ Hcn¡Â am{Xambn H¶p Xcptam .....?''

""bq Ìp¸nUv......'' AhÄ Aedn. Cuhgn C\n AhÄ icn¡pw hcnÃmbncn¡pw.

F¶n«pw Ah³ {]hÀ¯n¨p sImt­bncp¶p. AXnsâ ^eambn I¯pIfpw. ho«nse¯mXncn¡phm³ IgnbnÃm¯ AhØ !

hosS¯nbt¸mÄ apX ]cmXnIfpsS \nc. s]®p {]mbambm AÑ\½amÀ¡v Dd¡w Ipdbp¶ IYIfpw. A½ ss{]w ssSw kocnbense t]mse aq¡v ]ngnbp¶p. A¸³ ]Xnhnepw IqSpX Kvfmknsemgn¨v {]Xntj[n¨p.

Abes¯ ho«nte¡v aXnen\p taÂhi¯pIqsS shdpsX I®b¨p. ]gb Hm¨nd¡mfsb shdpsX H¶p ImWms\¦nepambn !

H«Iw ]pXnb Hcp thj¡¼hpambn h¶p. Ahsâ a½n X¯sb t]mse Nne¨p. \mdp¶ A¯À ]qinbncp¶ AhÀ sI«n¸nSn¡pt¼msgms¡ F\n¡v izmkwap«n. Nmb Ignªv t]mIp¶Xn\p ap³]v AhÀ Hcp Ahkcw X¶p.

"" Ft¸mgpw ImWpt¶msc¦nepw NS§n\p th­WvSn cWvSmfpw sImd¨v X\n¨ncp¶p ansWvSt¶bv.... ''

Ah³ thWvS F¶p ]dbm³ Bbpw ap³s] I¿n apdpsI ]nSn¨v hen¨p.

""hm ......Fsâ dqan Ccn¡mw .''

Ah³ ]cn{`an¨p F¶v hyàw. F\n¡v Bthiw IqSn. ImcWw ChnsS tdmkv \ndw IeÀ¶ ]qS¸q¡fpÅ aghmSnIfpsS XWenÃ.

Ipd¨p t\cw ]ckv]cw an­WvSnbnÃ. AXv Hcp kpJapÅ ØnXnbmbncp¶p. Ah³ Aao_bmbn amdp¶Xp ImWphm³ Rm³ Im¯ncp¶p.

""IXhS¨n«v \a¡v sI«n¸nSn¨p sIS¶mtem ?'' Ahsâ I®pIfn t\m¡nbmWv tNmZn¨Xv.

]s£ Ahsâ apXpIn ]Xnhp t]mse ]qªn apfbv¡phm³ XpS§n. Ahsâ aq{Xw F\n¡p \mdn.

t\ms¡¯m Zqcw ]c¶ aW¡m«neqsS Ah³ t]mbt¸mÄ F\n¡v tXm¶n , Rm³ ]n¶oSv Hcp Imew ]cnX]nt¨¡mw F¶v. kmam\yw A¨S¡apÅ Hcp hnizmkns¸®v BImXncp¶tXmÀ¯v.